I think I have the tendency, and natural ability, to have a very well developed high-level view of things. I don't know if thats a contradiction or not, whatever. But I think I am skilled at viewing a large problem or situation and being able to understand everything that is happening, the interactions occurring, and how it can be broken down and solved, addressed, whatever. As far as digging in and managing the details - that's definitely better suited for someone other than me!
So along those same lines, as much as I truly believe that giving your life to raise your 3 kids and influence other children, volunteer at schools, serve your neighbors, etc. etc. is a life or service, a life that makes a difference and definitely not a life full of wasted time and effort - I don't know if it's right for me. Maybe I need to be in the fight, helping with the big issues - and actually USING my skills. I'd love to make grand, sweeping changes to increase worldwide population & environmental sustainability, write a book that will change peoples perspectives... I don't know. It's like I just want to solve these big problems I see because I feel like it can be done. "To whom much has been given, much is expected." - I've always struggled with this. With the resources I have, the people I know who are much smarter and more driven than me - why not organize something that would make a huge difference?
But yet, this seems so far fetched! And I guess it's those people who overcome the impracticality of it that actually get it done - just like showbiz! And in the same way, nothing big can be done without many many people loving and caring and changing individual lives. It doesn't feel like it would be settling to do this instead, it just doesn't feel as exciting.
But, there's a lot of life left. Like I've set before, I feel so much freedom right now! I'm excited to see what life will bring and what I can make happen in it!!
