why not?

So being the nerd that I am, I created this blog in January planning to use it next year, when I get out into the real world and maybe people will want to keep up with my life. Apparently I like to start things at milestone dates or something. But then I figured why not now? Hopefully I'll have something worthwhile to say while still in college haha :)

Since Chris and I broke up, I've had to deal with the sadness and all of that, but more than anything, with the change or mentality. Being single is so incredibly different, especially at this point in my life. All the plans and complications and joys that I had in my mind for how things would be as we end college and move to Texas are pretty much shot. And as much as I am really unhappy about that, there is also a freedom in this singleness.

Sometimes I am concerned about my 'lack of emotion' about things. Shouldn't you be a bit more torn up when you get broken up with? I had a lot of hopes and dreams for our relationship. But at the same time, I can't see any point in being deeply concerned about what might have been or what I have lost.

My good friend Lori, who I love dearly, has a recent blog post that encouraged me in this area - talking about the story of Lot, as he and his family run from the destruction of Sodom. The angels instruct Lot, saying "Flee for your lives! Don't look back, and don't stop anywhere in the plain! Flee to the mountains or you will be swept away!" (Genesis 19:17) Then, in vs 26, we are told "But Lot's wife looked back, and she became a pillar of salt." 

They were leaving behind their entire lives, and everyone they knew, to be destroyed. It would be so hard not to look back. But in that same way, I believe that the Lord asks us to trust that what he brings is for our good, and by not looking back, they were demonstrating faith that the Lord's plan was greater than even their own lives. I don't want to waste time or emotion wishing for what can't be right now. This whole singleness thing is an opportunity, and one less distraction, so why not press on to see what the Lord has in store?